Sometimes it is really hard to please people even though I try to cater to their needs. Granted, the circumstances are beyond my control but still, it makes my earlier efforts go 'poof'. Also, in the process of doing so, I tend to put down others, an inclination that has followed me through the years, unfortunately. Then I just get tired of trying and become harsh. Sometimes harshness makes the truth more direct in its communication actually..... People refuse to accept the truth without it.
Expectations run high upon me because of my age but I can't meet them to the exact degree, sorry. Sometimes life deals us lessons we find difficult to absorb but everyone HAS to go through those experiences, including me! I didn't have anyone older to talk to with full trust when I went through them at their age, unlike those who come to me now. They are so lucky, at the expense of my sounding proud!
It is mentally and emotionally exhausting to change things and help make things right. This attitude is back with me again. Certain things have changed for the better but some haven't. Still, thinking about the last resort isn't something I'd actually do, ironically for emotional reasons again.
Yes, I'm extremely cryptic here for fear of offending the parties involved but on the other hand, even if they realise the truth, they will still not change. The situation has arose because of the choices made in their behaviour and attitudes. I doubt my words will create a strong impact as to reverse their adamant choices. Yes, I am being sarcastic as well!
